Dear Mother

Dear Mother:

I'm writing this because I don't know how to talk to you. We've endured a tumultuous relationship, you and I. In my younger years, I took you for granted. I never stopped to think of how much I put you through as long as I had what I needed. It never really occurred to me that you were my invisible support system. You never turned away, even when I took advantage of you or when I abused and assaulted you. My mind was in a different place and I know that's not an excuse. I'm sorry if I was a burden.

I started to become more aware as a young man. Influenced by outside sources, I began to develop a much greater appreciation for all you'd done for me. It was a learning process and I can only apologize that it took so long. You started showing signs of illness and I grew terribly concerned that our time might be cut short, and I wept. I wept for you and what you mean to me and my siblings. How you opened your heart to us and with equal generosity regardless of how badly you were treated.

Life swept me away from you for a time, and I lost sight of just how important you are to me. I was blinded by busy schedules and mind-numbing redundancy. You know how it is. But your subtle lessons about life never left me. You're there in my thoughts, my actions, my beliefs. Your wisdom is invaluable, your love, immeasurable. I owe you so much. You are my whole reason for being. Without you, I am nothing.

I've grown older and so have you, but you're just as beautiful today as when I first opened my eyes. I have a newfound appreciation for you and all you've done for me and I'm trying to give something back. I wish I could take back all the wrongs, but the past is the past, right? I guess what I'm trying to say is--you are my world.

last night and this morning

He was the most handsome man with grey hair and brown eyes, and his physique, gorgeous. He came to the door with 3 dozen long stemmed roses and a teddy bear.

When I opened the door, he smiled and I fell in love! He had the most beautiful smile I had ever seen and the same goes for his eyes.

We walked to his car, he had his hand on the small of my back. He opened my door for me and I got in. he leaned down to kiss me and said, I like your perfume. He shut the door and walked to the drivers side and got in. We drove for quite sometime talking and getting to know each other, we stopped and got some take out. The we drove to our destination. It was beautiful, there was a waterfall, a lake with ducks swimming, beautiful flowers and gorgeous trees.

We laughed so much and kissed and touched. We lit the candles he had in the back of the car. He was so beautiful and fluid in his movements. We fed each other the food that he had bought and then after we put the food away, we talked, getting to know each other in such an intimate conversation. His voice was like a perfect melody.

All the way home, all I could think was I don't want this to end. So when we got to my place, I invited him in. Not a word was spoken as we went to my bedroom and standing by the bed, he gave me a long, passionate kiss that went to the core of my being.

We made love several times, and it was the most beautiful thing, feeling him inside and his touch all over me and his kiss, again, all over me. I woke with a smile on my face, and then I realized it was my pillow I was hugging and it was all just a dag gone dream!