Everyday I wish

Everyday, we talk several times a day
yet he says we are just friends

I wish it were more.

Everyday, he says he loves me
as a friend.

I wish that he would love me more

Everyday, my heart aches for him
I wish for him the things that would make him happy

Everyday I fear that he will find someone else
I wish that he would choose me.

Everyday, I fear I will lose him
I wish that he were here.

Everyday my heart breaks,
I wish that he would fix it.

Everyday he is all I think about,
I wish he did the same.

And everyday that goes by, I hope
I am closer to one thing I want more and more,
His love, his heart.

Dear Mother

Dear Mother:

I'm writing this because I don't know how to talk to you. We've endured a tumultuous relationship, you and I. In my younger years, I took you for granted. I never stopped to think of how much I put you through as long as I had what I needed. It never really occurred to me that you were my invisible support system. You never turned away, even when I took advantage of you or when I abused and assaulted you. My mind was in a different place and I know that's not an excuse. I'm sorry if I was a burden.

I started to become more aware as a young man. Influenced by outside sources, I began to develop a much greater appreciation for all you'd done for me. It was a learning process and I can only apologize that it took so long. You started showing signs of illness and I grew terribly concerned that our time might be cut short, and I wept. I wept for you and what you mean to me and my siblings. How you opened your heart to us and with equal generosity regardless of how badly you were treated.

Life swept me away from you for a time, and I lost sight of just how important you are to me. I was blinded by busy schedules and mind-numbing redundancy. You know how it is. But your subtle lessons about life never left me. You're there in my thoughts, my actions, my beliefs. Your wisdom is invaluable, your love, immeasurable. I owe you so much. You are my whole reason for being. Without you, I am nothing.

I've grown older and so have you, but you're just as beautiful today as when I first opened my eyes. I have a newfound appreciation for you and all you've done for me and I'm trying to give something back. I wish I could take back all the wrongs, but the past is the past, right? I guess what I'm trying to say is--you are my world.

last night and this morning

He was the most handsome man with grey hair and brown eyes, and his physique, gorgeous. He came to the door with 3 dozen long stemmed roses and a teddy bear.

When I opened the door, he smiled and I fell in love! He had the most beautiful smile I had ever seen and the same goes for his eyes.

We walked to his car, he had his hand on the small of my back. He opened my door for me and I got in. he leaned down to kiss me and said, I like your perfume. He shut the door and walked to the drivers side and got in. We drove for quite sometime talking and getting to know each other, we stopped and got some take out. The we drove to our destination. It was beautiful, there was a waterfall, a lake with ducks swimming, beautiful flowers and gorgeous trees.

We laughed so much and kissed and touched. We lit the candles he had in the back of the car. He was so beautiful and fluid in his movements. We fed each other the food that he had bought and then after we put the food away, we talked, getting to know each other in such an intimate conversation. His voice was like a perfect melody.

All the way home, all I could think was I don't want this to end. So when we got to my place, I invited him in. Not a word was spoken as we went to my bedroom and standing by the bed, he gave me a long, passionate kiss that went to the core of my being.

We made love several times, and it was the most beautiful thing, feeling him inside and his touch all over me and his kiss, again, all over me. I woke with a smile on my face, and then I realized it was my pillow I was hugging and it was all just a dag gone dream!

My list of Turn offs where men are concerned

1. Bragging about the size of a certain part of your anatomy. First of all, Who cares? and scond if you are bragging about the size, you are probably exaggerating and its only 2 inches long, so forget it!

2. The ones who say "No Baggage". OK, here goes, its quite obvious you have plenty of your own , and thats cool or you like to creat baggage... not cool, or if you don't have any baggage, you are probably a couch potato and that is definately not cool!

3. Scam Artist.. Beware, I have a great BS Detector.

4. Men who drink- it stinks, sorry dudes not interested in kissing a bottle of booze or cuddling up to one.

5. Men who do drugs, definately wish they would go to the nearest rehab and get cleaned up.

6. Men who refuse to bathe. Self explanatory.

7. Men who refuse to clean up after themselves.

8. Men who think that just because they took you out on a date, you owe them sex. Most of us are decent women, who feel that if you refuse to take the time to get to know us, you aren't worth our time!

9. Men who put women down. You are only doing this to try to make up for areas that you know you are lacking in.

10. Men who abuse women physically..... you belong in a trash can, stay there by yourself.

11. Men who feel that even a little romance is not necessasary . Ah, wrong answer, get a life!

12. Men who forget to be a gentleman at anytime, but especially the first date... I mean come on, this is where you make your first impression!

13. Roving eyes means the rest will follow. I have cheaters

14. Men who think they own you - got news for you - you don't.

15. Men who think that they are gods gift to women.. ah, let me interrupt your worshipping yourself dude, you aren't gods gift to women, you are gods punishment to women!

THE MAKING OF A WIFE BEATER

I saw this poem on a website, and felt it was good because it was from the view of the offender

First, I will wine and dine her
Then I will fill her head with fairytale dreams
All the while, telling her how gorgeous she is.

Just a few more moves
and all will be set.

Now its time
to build her confidence skyscraper high with lies
(Mmm, this is a major key to make them fall
below their foundation)

Not quite finished,
How can one forget these fun tools,
Get her pregnant
and make her totally reliant on my money!

Woooo Hooo, the fun begins

First a few curse words,
kneaded with some demeaning gestures,

Next, tighten her wallet a little more,
Then start blaming her for everything.
Now, slow down the intimacy.

She's almost ready for her first slap.

I need to yell louder,
and tear apart her core viciously,

Its time to push her over, she's all primed!

Smack, crackle and punch!
What a cool way to start off my day!
Now its time to say I am sorry
over and over and hold her tight while
I beg for forgiveness!

Hey, I can't have my friends and family know,
She needs to lie for me!
After all, its all her fault!

Once she does this, I win!

Here's my favorite part!

Its easy to beat on someone that loves you unconditionally,
because they have nothing left and no place to stay
and the fatherly bonus is,
my little son Tommy will know how to keep his woman in her place

Now you know why I always wear a shit eating grin!

Motherly Lessons Parts 1 & 2

My Mother taught me LOGIC... "If you fall off that swing and break your neck, you can't go to the store with me."
My Mother taught me MEDICINE... "If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they're going to freeze that way."
My Mother taught me TO THINK AHEAD... "If you don't pass your spelling test, you'll never get a good job!"
My Mother taught me ESP... "Put your sweater on; don't you think that I know when you're cold?"
My Mother taught me TO MEET A CHALLENGE... "What were you thinking? Answer me when I talk to you...Don't talk back to me!"
My Mother taught me HUMOR... "When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
My Mother taught me how to BECOME AN ADULT... "If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up.
My mother taught me about GENETICS... "You are just like your father!"
My mother taught me about my ROOTS... "Do you think you were born in a barn?"
My mother taught me about the WISDOM of AGE... "When you get to be my age, you will understand."
My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION... "Just wait until your father gets home."
My mother taught me about RECEIVING... "You are going to get it when we get home."
And my all time favorite thing- JUSTICE... "One day you will have kids, and I hope they turn out just like YOU..then you'll see what it's like."
My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE... "If you're going to kill each other, do it outside - I just finished cleaning!"
My mother taught me RELIGION... "You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL... "If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
Motherly Lessons, Part II My mother taught me LOGIC... "Because I said so, that's why."
My mother taught me FORESIGHT... "Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident.
My mother taught me IRONY... "Keep crying and I'll give you something to cry about."
My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS... "Shut your mouth and eat your supper!" My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM... "Will you just look at the dirt on the back of your neck!"
My mother taught me about STAMINA... "You'll sit there 'till all that spinach is finished."
My mother taught me about WEATHER... "It looks as if a tornado swept through your room." My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY... "If I've told you once, I've told you a million times - Don't Exaggerate!!!"
My mother taught me THE CIRCLE OF LIFE... "I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."
My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION... "Stop acting like your father!"
My mother taught me about ENVY... "There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do!"

Keep Your Hands To Yourself